No parade for lost souls.

People have as much power as you give them. I may have given certain people too much of me and thus, I find myself stuck in a bit of a rut. Socially retarded, I said to her today. She's just as great as ever, of course, even when I'm annoying and act like a spoiled brat. She's always great.

I'm not that great. I know I have to let go of the past to make the most out of the amazing present I'm currently living, and ultimately to make a better future. What is it that they say....? The best way to predict the future is to create it. I hope they're right, because I've always been idealistic like that. Perhaps thinking I can create something so existentially big is a foolish thing. Let the dreamers dream, I say.

It's been over half a year. Round the same time that I found myself in the most rewarding and challenging relationship, I also learnt the hard way that people are fickle sheep. They all claim to know what's right and wrong, but when it comes to actually listening to the facts, many discovered they had a deaf ear. It doesn't even matter if it was the right or wrong ear. I didn't expect that. Is it why I'm still stuck over what happened?

I swore I'd get over it and I have. You don't matter to me at all anymore. I don't feel the need to stick your face in a wall when I see you. I don't avoid places we used to go together, simply because you don't count at all. I've pushed myself forward and I now have a meaning, a purpose in life, a direction. All along, you were holding me back.
...No. I let you hold me back.

Am I sorry? Not exactly. If I hadn't, I wouldn't be here today. And while I feel stuck and without a way out, I wouldn't change it for the world. I bet it sucks to know I found the happiness of my life because you decided to turn everyone against me. Which, you have. It doesn't matter. What matters is she makes me happier than I've ever been. She gives a different meaning to every day. She challenges me, she changes me, she makes me see who I want to be. And who I want to be with.

I have given you too much power. But I'm taking it back now. Some live to have fun. Others live to make something out of this life. I'd like to think that, as much as I love to have fun, my desire to leave something behind is a lot bigger than the need to drink.

I think the trick is... Find someone that makes you feel complete without defining you as a person. Afterwards, pieces of life's puzzle seem to fall in the right places, somehow. I've yet to fully understand how. I don't think I want to know. Not everything has an explanation. Just like not everyone has a bright future, some people are meant to be average while others are destined for greatness.

Disclaimer: Yes, this is aimed at someone in particular. It's also a life lesson in itself. An experience that redefined my ideas about people and society. One that opened my eyes a little bit more.
This is also the last time I plan to think or mention this said event. I'm locking it on this page, for all eternity. Or for all of blogspot's eternity, at least. Farewell. Tomorrow is a new day.