Bleeding the dream.

"Baby, baby, baby..."

Okay. I give up. Justin Bieber Fever is on. For a while now and it's just crazy. A lot of things seem rather odd lately. If I have peace of mind in my offline life, my online one must suffer. It's insane how affected I am over one fictional character I happened to invent, but I guess that's how we, writers, are. I'm trying hard not to be sad, because other than this tiny thing everything else is pretty amazing. But we all have bad moments and today is my very bad moment.

Mkay. Well, nothing else to say for the end of June. Things in London are still very good, much to my surprise. Will try to blog more, but I'm not making any promises.

Always&forever.

Another Thursday.

Finally. I sent my papers today and I'm hoping for the best. I'm also hoping whatever comes my way can come before the middle of July, so I can book a flight back home. I'm supposed to visit the mother country in the first week of August, even though I'm reluctant in doing so. I don't really want to go and apparently that makes me selfish and mean. That's what one of my Romanian friends told me just a little while ago and well...so be it. I'd much rather stay here where my life is relatively good, can anyone blame me? I'd think not.

But speaking of that. Last week was closure week, I guess. I finally put a stop to everything that was going on for over three years and I feel weird. Free, empty, excited, sad. All at the same time, sort of like an emotional roller coaster. But I know everything will be okay, because things were bound to end this way. And so, I say goodbye to a wonderful yet painful period of my life and start walking towards the future. Who knows what might happen.

And some random facts. I'm doing research for my future career as well, still learning proper Spanish and thinking of doing some online classes, if I can ever find the right ones. Going to dye my hair 'Deepest Mudberry' and hope for the best. Actually, it's only a bit lighter than my natural shade and I'm only doing it because the sun basically turned me into a dark blonde haired girl. My sunburn is all better now, the red turned to a lovely shade of brown so I'm proud of my tan. And so is everybody else, considering they all notice it. Still haven't been to Central London, but somehow I'm not in a hurry to do it. Maybe it's because I know I'll be here for a while, so I figured I have all the time in the world to visit. Besides, I'm quite comfortable here, hanging out with my friends. And one important thing I learned lately: when it comes to life and doing stuff, you can't say 'I don't know how to do that'. Nope. You gotta stick your neck out and do it any way you can.


I jumped on the Bieber Fever wagon, just for a little song. This one inspires me every time I hear it, so here you go.