Flames to dust, lovers to friends.

A huge revelation hit me in the head this morning, as I was sipping from a cup of steaming coffee. Being an adult isn't that hard, as long as you start somewhere. And since the first step is always the hardest one, we sit here pretending we're still kids because we're still in college, still following in our parents' footsteps, trying to please them. Sometimes even ignoring our own selves, much to our disadvantage.

So.
What to do now? The only logical reply seems, 'be an adult' and take life by its...well, you know. ;D
My sense of humor still lives, somewhere deep down, even though stressing out over exams isn't doing it any favors. And then I ask myself when it'll all be over and the answer instantly pops into my mind: never. It only ends when I give up and I'm definitely not ready to do that.




P.S. What is it about the cold weather that makes me want to type even more silly shit? Not that I'm complaining, procrastinating is my favorite activity anyway.

Till the sun comes up...

Mid-session. I kind of want to go die, right about now.
A week of studying and reading and dealing with a lot of other stuff has made me all icky and mean. And bitchy, too.

Nobody likes that.
Not even me.

Oh, how I wish high school back. Those were the golden days, truly. Now we get to deal with exams and bills and stupid love lives. But here's what I wanted to note today: It's been almost a month from 2010 and time seems to go by so freaking slow. I need me a time turner, just like Hermione. If you're not a Harry Potter fan, it's safe to say it's a wonderful device that turns back time.

I would turn time back to a place where I didn't have to worry about school and boys and I could spend all day long reading and listening to my favorite music. And at the same time, I would probably make time go by faster, to reach my all time favorite goal: London.

Instead, I sit here, typing up meaningless words when I should be studying. Hah. Ain't life ironic?


I am going nowhere in a hurry, baby come take away all my worries...



Tiesto Ft. Nelly Furtado - Who Wants To Be Alone

Bad start.

Oh, god. Some weeks start off just bad enough to piss me off for the rest of the week. Or to make me feel weak for the rest of the week. Yesterday, it was both. Learning something that raw about myself was like receiving a slap straight in the face, accompanied by a stupid voice saying 'sorry, you're pretty much insane and need to start working on it'. Ugh. Not exactly what I wanted to hear, but whatever. Life goes on, I guess.

Well, life does go on and fuck my life, I'm supposedly in exam session. Three weeks of exams, exams and yes, more exams. My lack of previous studying, combined with my state of mind make me either too energetic or too lazy to give a damn. It's really not a good combination, it makes me wanna slap myself in the face.

Also. What's up with the whole world still going crazy about New Moon? I'm so freaking tired, I want to scream. Everywhere I look online, it's either Twilight related or Avatar stuff. Both need to be stabbed, cause jesus, it's getting old.

Yeah, not such a good mood today. Must go read some more economical shit. Peace.

Born in the wrong place.

I woke up this morning all motivated and energized. I was going to do things. Like? Well. How about everything I've been neglecting? And boy, there's so many, that when I thought about it I decided today wasn't the day. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe.

Winter break was...weird. Every time I go back home, I realize it's not my place there. Not anymore. I got used to living without my parents, even though I thought I never would. Now it's so weird having them around all day long, scary even. It might sound bad, but it's the truth. While I hate living alone, I also don't like living with my parents. Odd, but it's me. Deal with it.

New Years was boring, but nice. I spent it with my sister downtown and while it didn't have anything of the glamor it supposed to have, I don't have any regrets. After all, I did say this was my last one here, so why regret it? It was boring cause by the time we got home, we were too sleepy to eat the ton of food we had or even drink. So we were lame and old.

Other than all the nonsense I've typed. School started and I'm still very much behind with my studying. So behind that I'm looking at my books and wish I could throw them out the window. Can I? Oh, please, please. It's all I'm asking for. Anyway! Yes, school started, exam session in two weeks, I'm still ignoring the few friends I still have and still dealing with my least favorite demon: myself. Hopefully, 2010 will be MY year.

Here's to hoping.
By the way. Happy New Year! (: