Until 2011, of course. And unlike any of the other years, today I actually have time to write a post for this blog. Turns out, British people are big on Christmas, but not too keen to celebrate the New Years Eve. It's not the same, there's no classic build-up to midnight, no excitement. I actually miss my parents' rush during the last day of the year, when everything needed to be close to perfection for the new year.
Anyway.
It's my first New Years Eve in London and for that, I'm eternally grateful. I've made my list of resolutions and I'm hoping that next year, the balance will turn out in my favor, just like it has this year. Also, I'm just adding to the list like right now: "party hard next 31st of December", this way I won't forget to celebrate it properly next year. We'll just say I was caught off guard this year, haha.
Happy New Year! Celebrate, enjoy, be merry and safe. See you in 2011.o
December 31, 2010
December 23, 2010
From beginning to end.
You know you're doing something right when you can fall asleep at night without having to think about what a failure you are. And while I'm still experiencing with this, I'm happy to report I've had no trouble sleeping for a few months now. I'm doing my best to not get cocky and just keep on working, as this seems to be the only way out. Or should I say, the only way in? Regardless, it's not by sitting in our corner all alone that we'll understand what we need to do to get where we want to be.
...Such a complicated sentence.
It's the end of 2010 and I've yet to write my list of resolutions, but I'll get to it in due time. I've been working this week, and I simply hate holidays, especially when the parents are at home. It feels like I'm not working, when in fact I totally am. I can't wait for school to start again, that way I can make some sense of my working schedule.
I'm also supposed to help cook the Christmas dinner and we shall see how that's going to go, considering I'm so bad in the kitchen I burn water. But there's always that first time and apparently, things work out pretty well once you're past that first step. We shall see.
Our Christmas tree is now cluttered with presents and gifts are still arriving at the house, from god knows where. That part is a bit different from Romania. We used to put the presents under the tree on the 24th and open them up on the next day. Here, we've been putting wrapped boxes under that tree since last week, haha. It's fascinating to see how a different culture reacts to a holiday like this.
On New Year's Eve, I'm probably going to go out with some friends, if all things go well. And then, I'm stepping into the New Year full of hope for an even better beginning than the end of this year. It's been eventful, but I have absolutely no regrets. There's no other place I'd rather be right now, even though I'm far from parents, siblings, friends. This is what I wanted and finally!, I'm getting it.
So I guess I should thank myself? Haha. For having the courage to step out of my comfort zone and finally making my way towards my destiny. Or maybe I should thank a higher power, since I couldn't do it without being rightfully guided by someone up there. Anyway. I hope your 2010 is ending on a good note, too. We all deserve it. At least, every once in a while.
Lastly, I leave you with a song that has no connection with this blog, whatsoever. But it's a song I love and it fits my current love life. Or lack thereof. Enjoy.
...Such a complicated sentence.
It's the end of 2010 and I've yet to write my list of resolutions, but I'll get to it in due time. I've been working this week, and I simply hate holidays, especially when the parents are at home. It feels like I'm not working, when in fact I totally am. I can't wait for school to start again, that way I can make some sense of my working schedule.
I'm also supposed to help cook the Christmas dinner and we shall see how that's going to go, considering I'm so bad in the kitchen I burn water. But there's always that first time and apparently, things work out pretty well once you're past that first step. We shall see.
Our Christmas tree is now cluttered with presents and gifts are still arriving at the house, from god knows where. That part is a bit different from Romania. We used to put the presents under the tree on the 24th and open them up on the next day. Here, we've been putting wrapped boxes under that tree since last week, haha. It's fascinating to see how a different culture reacts to a holiday like this.
On New Year's Eve, I'm probably going to go out with some friends, if all things go well. And then, I'm stepping into the New Year full of hope for an even better beginning than the end of this year. It's been eventful, but I have absolutely no regrets. There's no other place I'd rather be right now, even though I'm far from parents, siblings, friends. This is what I wanted and finally!, I'm getting it.
So I guess I should thank myself? Haha. For having the courage to step out of my comfort zone and finally making my way towards my destiny. Or maybe I should thank a higher power, since I couldn't do it without being rightfully guided by someone up there. Anyway. I hope your 2010 is ending on a good note, too. We all deserve it. At least, every once in a while.
Lastly, I leave you with a song that has no connection with this blog, whatsoever. But it's a song I love and it fits my current love life. Or lack thereof. Enjoy.
December 11, 2010
December is for cynics.
I'm watching X Factor, the finale. And the group song, the theme from Flashdance, reminded me of what's possible. Answer? Everything. If you take your passion and make it happen, you can do anything.
I spent the day in central London, people watching as I was making my way along Oxford Street trying to reach a department store so I could finally meet (in person!) one of my oldest online friends. And I was feeling a tad bit nervous, because I always feel like I'm not good enough for people. But luckily, our meeting was good, though very short, as she was working and I couldn't interrupt her for too long. And we made plans to definitely see each other and properly hang out, so I'm happy with the outcome.
I've decided that 2011 will be the first year when I will finally keep all my New Year's resolutions. I'm going to make a list of them, all achievable and then I'm going to try and keep each and every one of them. It's cause 2010 ends on a rather good note, if I do say so myself. Not perfect, cause perfect doesn't even exist. But okay, with lots of things to look forward to. And it's one of the first years that will not end up with me thinking 'what have I done this year?'. And that's probably the best I could have hoped for, considering how this year started.
I spent the day in central London, people watching as I was making my way along Oxford Street trying to reach a department store so I could finally meet (in person!) one of my oldest online friends. And I was feeling a tad bit nervous, because I always feel like I'm not good enough for people. But luckily, our meeting was good, though very short, as she was working and I couldn't interrupt her for too long. And we made plans to definitely see each other and properly hang out, so I'm happy with the outcome.
I've decided that 2011 will be the first year when I will finally keep all my New Year's resolutions. I'm going to make a list of them, all achievable and then I'm going to try and keep each and every one of them. It's cause 2010 ends on a rather good note, if I do say so myself. Not perfect, cause perfect doesn't even exist. But okay, with lots of things to look forward to. And it's one of the first years that will not end up with me thinking 'what have I done this year?'. And that's probably the best I could have hoped for, considering how this year started.
December 06, 2010
You can't hold on to water.
It's been quite some time since I've written here, and to this day I still have nothing special to say. But as I was watching some videos from a Romanian TV show, I felt like laying down some thoughts in an attempt of feeling at ease with...well, with pretty much everything.
Christmas is right around the corner and though I've steered clear from the pain of feeling homesick, I think it's finally catching up. No, don't get me wrong. It's not enough to make me jump on a plane and head home, but it's enough to make me sad in the evening, right before I go to bed. I've always been the skeptical one when it came to going back to Romania, but I find myself missing it sometimes. Not the politics, not the misery, but the beautiful landscapes, that home feeling you can only get when your mother's arms are wrapped around you. That is what I miss, and so many other things. Things I hadn't noticed before I left. And I'm pretty sure that no matter how much I try, I'm not going to find them anywhere else.
But that's the thing about life. You have to decide if it's worth letting go of those familiar things in order to brighten up your future and along with it, your whole life. We may regret our past and not love our present very much, but without those two, we wouldn't have a future to look forward to. If we hadn't made those mistakes, we'd never find ourselves exactly where we are. And more importantly, we probably wouldn't be who we are.
I'm quite happy with where I am right now. I know I have a long way to go to get to that point where I can say "I've done it my way and it turned out to be great.", but without taking that first step, I'd probably still be back home, wondering what if. And that's not acceptable.
My motto now is 'take each day as it comes' and though I'm still struggling to apply it every day, it's definitely an improvement from what it used to be. And maybe, just maybe, one day I can go back home and feel great once again. At home.
Christmas is right around the corner and though I've steered clear from the pain of feeling homesick, I think it's finally catching up. No, don't get me wrong. It's not enough to make me jump on a plane and head home, but it's enough to make me sad in the evening, right before I go to bed. I've always been the skeptical one when it came to going back to Romania, but I find myself missing it sometimes. Not the politics, not the misery, but the beautiful landscapes, that home feeling you can only get when your mother's arms are wrapped around you. That is what I miss, and so many other things. Things I hadn't noticed before I left. And I'm pretty sure that no matter how much I try, I'm not going to find them anywhere else.
But that's the thing about life. You have to decide if it's worth letting go of those familiar things in order to brighten up your future and along with it, your whole life. We may regret our past and not love our present very much, but without those two, we wouldn't have a future to look forward to. If we hadn't made those mistakes, we'd never find ourselves exactly where we are. And more importantly, we probably wouldn't be who we are.
I'm quite happy with where I am right now. I know I have a long way to go to get to that point where I can say "I've done it my way and it turned out to be great.", but without taking that first step, I'd probably still be back home, wondering what if. And that's not acceptable.
My motto now is 'take each day as it comes' and though I'm still struggling to apply it every day, it's definitely an improvement from what it used to be. And maybe, just maybe, one day I can go back home and feel great once again. At home.
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