I want.

I was instructed to make a list with what I want/expect from others, so that people can be informed. Obviously.

1. Someone to know how I feel from a single glance.
2. Someone to know me so well, they can guess my desires.
3. Someone to love me exactly how I am, a little crazy and neurotic.
4. Someone to remember my birthday and just call, I don't need gifts. That someone would be a gift in itself, so hearing their voice would be the best.
5. Someone to be patient with me when I have problems, not tell me to get over them cause they're not important.
6. Someone to listen to me, even when I ramble about my favorite TV show.
7. Someone to hug me when I'm down and be there for me.
8. Someone to give me those butterflies, that oh-my-god-I-love-her feeling.
9. Someone to take me out dancing, even if they don't dance much.
10. Someone to give my heart to, without getting it back broken into pieces.
And if this is too much, then I don't want anyone.
I don't want you to ask me to change, because I'm not asking you to change. So how is that fair?

I'm tired of bad excuses and sad afternoons. I'm tired of trying, because I'm never good enough. I'm tired of being here.
I'm tired of the unbalance between people in relationships. This is why I would like to avoid them from now on. If you can't accept me as your equal, then don't bother looking my way. Ever.


There you go. List for your soul.
I hope you're happy now.


I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, forever is over.